The Kite Runner : Taking a pause with my reading.

I started reading The Kite Runner with curiosity, knowing it was a well-loved and highly recommended book. At first, it felt gentle—almost nostalgic—with its focus on childhood, friendship, and life in Afghanistan. But as the story unfolded, it began to take a darker and more intense turn.

I’ll be honest—I had to pause.

The shift into heavier and more violent themes caught me off guard. It wasn’t just the events themselves, but how real and emotionally heavy they felt. It made me realize that some stories don’t just entertain you—they ask something from you. They ask you to sit with discomfort, to witness pain, and to reflect on things you might not be ready to process yet.

And maybe that’s where I am right now—not unwilling, but not quite ready. 

Or maybe I just don't have the headspace for anything emotionally taxing yet.

Even though I didn’t finish the book (at least not yet), I can already see why it resonates with so many readers. There’s depth in the way it portrays friendship, loyalty, guilt, and the consequences of our choices. It doesn’t romanticize life—it shows how complicated and sometimes painful it can be.

For now, I’ve decided to step away from it, not because it isn’t good, but because it’s too powerful for the space I’m currently in. I do hope to return to it someday, when I feel more ready to face the weight of its story.

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

Author: Stephen Chbosky
Genre: Young Adult,
Publisher: Gallery Books
Distributor: National Bookstore Philippines
Distributor Price: PHP495.00
Date of Publication: 1999
Illustration by: unknown
No of pages: 213
Hardbound/Paperback: Paperback
No of days taken to read: 1Week
ISBN: 978-1-4516-9619-6 (pbk)

Synopsis:

The Perks of Being a Wallflower follows Charlie as he navigates the confusing, often overwhelming world of high school. It captures the highs and lows of first dates, complicated family dynamics, new friendships, and the messy realities of growing up—sex, drugs, identity, and everything in between.

My Thoughts:

I had been hearing great things about The Perks of Being a Wallflower for years, but I never really felt the urge to pick it up—until someone gifted me a copy. And I’m glad they did.

This book stayed with me long after I finished it. Charlie’s journey through adolescence, especially his quiet struggle with the lingering effects of past trauma, felt deeply real and unsettling in the most honest way. I ended up reading it more than once, just to sit with the thoughts and emotions it stirred.

There’s something about this story that makes you reflect on your own experiences. It made me think about how it feels to be misunderstood, to be ridiculed, or to lose people you care about. It also made me confront uncomfortable truths—like the times I didn’t treat people as well as I should have, including the person who gave me this book. It’s humbling in that way.

I found myself really feeling for Charlie—his loneliness, his sensitivity, and his quiet hope. I was genuinely glad he found Sam and Patrick. Even if their choices aren’t perfect, they gave him companionship and a sense of belonging when he needed it most.

One line that stayed with me was:

“Sometimes, my dad calls her beautiful, but she cannot hear him.”
That hit hard. It reminded me how easy it is to ignore kindness from others while being overly critical of ourselves. We hate being judged, yet we can be our own worst critics.

What I appreciated most about this book is how it gently pushes you toward self-acceptance and self-respect. It’s like the author gave a voice to the quiet parts of us—the parts we don’t always know how to express.